I am deep in prayer this morning.
There are so many things to do. So many things to still smooth out.
It’s funny. I’m sure that my ex-husband thinks that he has me in a tizzy about his attempt to reduce child support, but in reality that it is just another thing on my list. I’ve always taken care of my children. He’s always done everything that he can to screw things up for my children. If he died today and there was no more child support, we would be fine. For him, money is all-powerful. If he had died ten years ago, we would have been fine. 
He won’t let go of me. In reality, everything that he does is about me, not the children. He is so consumed with his hatred for me that it colors his world.
But enough about him.
As I was saying, there are things that still need to be worked out regarding this move. Rather than drowning in a feeling of being overwhelmed, I pray.
God is a lot bigger than me. And He certainly has far more resources than I. Best to let Him take the wheel.
Today:
~call attorney
~take John to meeting
~call Rena
~gather the books/DVDs/CDs that we will be taking with us
~eat a snickerdoodle (my favorite cookie, by the way)
The Secret teaches that what we think about is what we attract.
The past ten years of my life have proved that to be true. I have really done myself and my children a disservice. All of these years I have prayed to just get by.
Dear God, please provide enough money for all the bills to be covered this month.
I should have been praying big. I know this because my prayers were answered. We did manage. There always was enough. Granted, there were many times when we barely scraped by, but we scraped by. And that was what I had asked for in prayer. That was what I received.
I’m praying big now.
We’re having to make some adjustments to our plans. I decided to relax, think positively and allow God to take care of things - I just did the footwork.
Today’s Big Issue: Resolved
The person that I spoke to regarding this issue was extremely friendly, helpful and encouraging.
Tomorrow I deal with yet another Big Issue. I’m not fretting. I’ll do the footwork and let God work His magic.
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I am emotionally wiped out.
This afternoon Isabella ran away again. This makes two days in a row, in fact. Only this time she was missing for about a half an hour. I was frantic. She’s like lightning. She runs and runs and runs. We live near a highway. Need I say more?
I was still jittery when James stopped by and told me that he plans on buying a motorcycle tomorrow. I bawled.
I’m a basket case tonight.
Time for some heavy duty prayer.
